Where I belong

Woven to wake, speak my name and the meaning of its omen.

An angel digress and now shares part in an evil unveiled.
Two faces one man, a heart in turmoil, a mind corrupt and a soul forgot.
Understand this he says to me, know why and never depart.
Lingering and dancing in locked away spaces, the corner of my eyes...
Slowly shadows creep and with the light dimmed a smile from sinister origin.
He looks at you as I would but with darker desire.
One body two fractions and a soul now lost.
Reach for my hand he whispers to her, those lips curve and voice with malice intent.
Behind these eyes I now caged as he once was.
In this hell he forms home and rules with conviction of unjust.
I see and sit and look to watch, the very world I built now turn to dust.
Crumble and cringe each inch torn away... the very hands that paved this road...
Now set a light each brick and stone.
Four years have passed these bars now weekend and rusted...
Cemented to these walls with my own blood...
The very evil I sought to rid now to free me of all I rid it for...
Applaud my end, this world and all in it does.
No more wonders and questions or answers written on your face.
Though it pains me, after all the distances we have crossed.
I am no more a man than that which I am the animal I so wish to be freed of.
And I have seen your tears and so many moments our eyes lingered.
At every moment your cent haunts me, much more and even so as the feeling of your happiness
Something I felt when your hand clinched mine, but it is a place that I do not belong.
After all I know you see these stones, they are not my walls but my tomb.
Built by whip and lash, those tongues of those who wish to stone.
Even here where I am happy, even for this moment, I grant and wish me death.
To protect you from me and all I am and the meaning there of.
I never have and never will corrupt and rob you of your happiness.
So condemn my heart and cast me to flame.
Let mine ashes fill the air and drown out the light.
As my existence and soul are more blackened than a thousand midnights.
In the end I will cost you your life...
A price I intend to pay now with my own.
All their Judgements, verdicts, convictions now my decree...
They were right...
I am not what you are looking for...
So I have to let go...
Now let me fall to my end...
For if I do not he will surely be about...