Questions to God

I took a moment in time

Held my breath and closed my eyes

Seeking answers beyond the grave



Whether my destination was Heaven or Hell

It would all be the same to me

For I could not imagine

A Heaven without the people I Love

Loneliness is death in itself

A Hell even on the plains of Heaven

I can’t believe that I believe

That I wish all could make the journey

I realize now that the tears I’ve cried

The misery I’ve felt was not for myself

But for my family, friends,

The ones I love and my fellow man

This world is an illusion

A paper charade

Where men are fascinated

By the demise of others

I know I am a complicated person

Seeking attention

In my own ways and

Misunderstood by everyone

But not by my mind and God

My means are innocent

My cause just

But why am I pursued …

Pursued and persecuted by my own demons